I don’t need validation. I don’t need validation. I don’t need validation.
I know now that this is because of childhood trauma and my mother’s constant reminders that I need to impress people and have people like me.
But it’s weighing me down. It’s all weighing me down. This is why I know I could never become a celebrity or influencer, or what have you. I care too much of what others think. I’m so conditioned of being “the best” that when people think otherwise, I’m hurt for hours, days, weeks.
Yet I constantly tell myself I don’t care. I don’t care…. Lies.
I care.
And that’s okay. But I shouldn’t let one person’s thoughts of me badger me this much.
People will dislike you if you’re mean; people will dislike you if you’re nice.
I’m chill and mind my business 90% of the time, and that finds its way of bothering people. What can you do?
I’ve chosen people for years. Constantly. Trying to make other’s happy.
When will I choose myself?
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